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Post by nutmeg1992 on Jan 10, 2012 19:53:22 GMT -5
When the fuck is this bitch going to move out and we're going to get some peace and fucking quiet for once.
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Post by ravenwitch on Jan 21, 2012 12:44:53 GMT -5
wow, it's dead in here..... *pokes forum with a stick*
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*steals stuff*
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Kuzyn
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Post by Kuzyn on Jan 24, 2012 21:42:58 GMT -5
This is why we can't have nice things.
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stalker666
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Post by stalker666 on Jan 31, 2012 17:41:15 GMT -5
My mum is being emotionally abusive recently and she has some serious fracking issues to sort out in her own head before she goes judging me on mine. I'm already becoming a nervous wreck at the slightest sign of something going wrong, because I know I'll be yelled at and blamed. It's like walking on razor blades. No matter what I do, I'm going to get cut. I know I have problems, and I know that there is a lot wrong with me. I'm 208 lbs, I'm lazy, I sleep too much and keep insane hours, my head is constantly in the clouds, and this pessimism is becoming more and more what my world consists of. I don't know how to escape the draining negativity I've come to know and expect. I don't even know who the Hell I am anymore. My life seems to be defined by an inability to grow the fuck up. Nothing ever changes anymore. Every day is a battle with emotions, and I am so sick of feeling anything. I really wish my soul was gone, because I can't take any more of this stress. I panic at the slightest inconvenience, I'm cut off from my friends, communication-wise and geographically. I swear, Hell can't be worse than this. I'm already full of self doubt, I don't need the extra insecurity and scrutiny on top of it all. I want to leave, and move out, but I don't know where I would go. My environment is toxic. It leeches away all volition and makes me unable to escape. It takes me and chains me in some far away corner of my mother's mind. She's losing it. Her husband lost it over a year ago. I'm living in a madhouse, with shoddy wiring and it's making me give up on ever having any motivation to do anything ever again. What the Hell is wrong with me these days? Can somebody please tell me? Why can't I escape my own head?
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stalker666
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Post by stalker666 on Feb 24, 2012 20:23:17 GMT -5
I finally told her that I'm moving out. She said no. I'm doing it anyway. She won't let me have anything out of the house, including gifts from friends, my writing, and my social security card, let alone my clothes. I'm afraid I'll have to call the cops to get an escort.... She told me that I'm never allowed to come back, and that as far as she is concerned she doesn't have a daughter anymore.
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Post by viol8r on Mar 8, 2012 2:05:04 GMT -5
sounds like that woman seriously needs some major mental help.
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Kuzyn
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Post by Kuzyn on Mar 8, 2012 7:50:27 GMT -5
Munchhausen by proxy... eh, not quite, maybe just Munchhausen, 'cus you're too old for her to be "by proxy-ing" and that would definitely just be a case of pure child abuse. I'm currently flunking Abnormal Psychology, but I am still picking up some stuff.
Seriously, you're old enough to just start decking her. I started fighting back against my mom when I was about 13, got sent to the psycho ward of the hospital for two weeks, but that was the last time she tried to manhandle me. Still beat me occasionally, but I was never dragged up a flight of stairs again, so, progress!
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Post by viol8r on Mar 10, 2012 0:27:16 GMT -5
some people just do NOT need to have kids!
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Post by nutmeg1992 on Mar 10, 2012 23:19:26 GMT -5
some people just do NOT need to have kids! AMEN!
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stalker666
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Post by stalker666 on Mar 11, 2012 13:28:13 GMT -5
My mum seems pretty accepting of it now. Everythings cool now, she just needed some time to think things over, though apparently I should have waited to cash my first cheque so she could take a pic, and she's complaining that I got ahead on my rent because my brother was going to let me keep my first one originally, but because I paid with this one, he took fifty dollars off the total.
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Post by viol8r on Mar 11, 2012 14:04:01 GMT -5
Tourettes syndrome it is. XD
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Post by ravenwitch on May 24, 2012 19:55:56 GMT -5
*pokes board with stick*
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Post by ariella on May 31, 2012 17:28:14 GMT -5
I haven't been here in... forever. But I just need to rant. I hate my life at the moment. Sitting here in a hospital going through chemo and I feel like I can't trust anyone and that I'm alone. All I want is a shoulder to cry on and a hug and my friends are off enjoying summer break. I don't blame them and they have visited me, but I just wish I could cry. I still can't believe the guy I was going to date and was pretty much dating for five months just left me for a moron then wants to know how to move on from her to a friend of mine. Do what you did to me asshole! Just leave and say "oh we were just friends anyways" while I'm in the hospital all sick and feeling horribly useless and pathetic. I hope you know that you'll get nowhere with my friend, she doesn't really like you anyway. I just want to go home except then I'll get bitched out by my parents. I can't wait to move into an apartment. I can't wait to get out of this fucking hospital.
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Post by nutmeg1992 on Jul 6, 2012 4:50:25 GMT -5
I haven't said anything online about it, trying to get her to call me, I call her myself no answer, not even a ring and it goes straight to "The caller you're trying to reach is unavailable please leave a message" and I know I shouldn't be freaking out about this because she was online monday and she replied to a friend on her FB wall but she's not answering any of my messages and she won't call and I'm worried and I just wanna know if everything is still alright, because I paid 600 dollars for my flight to see her and I really shouldn't be freaking out but I am and probably by next week I'll be there with her laughing at how stupid I am but right now it seems like I won't be laughing at anything and OMG PLEASE JUST CALL ME ALREADY GODDAMMIT!
Edit: All is right with the world, she contacted me and my trip is still on.
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Post by ravenwitch on Jul 10, 2012 16:56:44 GMT -5
Where you heading to?
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